I was really looking forward to the 3rd of the month. I always do & it sucks . This time, I was just hoping for it because I thought it’ll be the day, but it’s not. Not this time .
Thankyou for taking me to my ortho like you always do, thankyou for buying me food. Thankyou for everything you’ve done for me. You have fucked up a lot and I’m not gonna forget it, but it is best to leave it in the past where it belongs. You’ve fucked up, yes, but you’ve done a lot more for me and I can’t be lucky enough to have someone like you in my life. I hope things do get better for you in time, I know they are . You just need to try to stop stressing out so much and try to deal with it as best as you can . Take care of yourself, you know I’m here if anything. I know you got that other chick too nigga ! I’m not stupid, you stupid head . Whatever though. You guys are friends i guess. Even though I know she still wants your ass. That’s what makes you dumb, because you keep being “friends” with her, she’s gonna still want you more than just a friend. Watch, you’ll realize it AGAIN. Then you’re gonna tell me that I’m right, AGAIN. If I’m wrong, then she probably moved on . Whatever though, as long as YOUR life gets better. That’s all that matters . You promised that you’ll try -_- you tried for one whole day, next two days didn’t see each other, but it wasn’t anything big because of how you spoke to me, then the next day is today. Yeah, I’d have to say, you tried so fucking hard. Lol. You know I’m not gonna talk to you unless you come to me or unless I need to tell you something important. I really did mean it, about what your mom gave you. I hope you really do find that girl .
"Give. Even when you know you can get nothing back."
"I want you to hold my hand while we grocery shop. I want you to play with my hair while we watch our favorite tv shows. I want you to kiss me in the middle of my sentence because you wanted to taste my words. I want you to rub my back as we fall asleep. I want you to play my favorite song when I look sad. I want you to do these things without having to think about them. Do them because you love me."
"If you have the person you really want. You are one lucky fucker"
I don’t want to look back in five years time and think, ‘We could have been magnificent, but I was afraid.’ In 5 years I want to tell of how fear tried to cheat me out of the best thing in life, and I didn’t let it.